Looking back

It's late and both kids are snoozing while I revisit songs from my past. The ones you only listened to for that short time then put on the shelf only to revisit during periods like this when you want to hop in your imaginary time machine and sit back and let the waves of nostalgia hit you. Sitting and thinking about the good time and the bad alike..wondering why I was such a difficult teen. I am still an emotional wreck as it seems... still have body issues.. still wondering what if but just not caring about it all that much.

I think my main issues right now are confidence and focus. I need to focus my attention on what my real true bliss is and follow it . I need to stop dabbling and start honing in on my true craft whatever that may be. I am starting to get back into my music so hopefully that will be what happens but if not I will become successful in other ways. Hard to be successful in anything if you don't have the confidence to be heard.

It's this vicious cycle... I am happy but not.. I am sad not really.. it's this blah feeling I get whenever I get really strung out and needing a vacation or something to shake up my routine. See I love that I have a routine but I hate it all at once. I need excitement.. not to be confused with drama.. which I like to keep at a bare minimum.

At any rate.. I am done looking back.. at least for now.. it was nice to look back ten years and actually smile. Life is far too short to stall out... let's move it along now shall we .. I am ready for my next adventure!

Namaste
Elizabeth