Updates

 Been awhile since I last posted and have been experiencing ups and downs of life ... Trying to find balance in everything and tonight I am feeling more like myself than I have in a long long time.

So first off I bought something for a not even conceived child :p I saw this cute little baby shoes that match my babyhawk mei tai :) and I just got them.. It satiated that longing I've been having to say okay...it's not all done and over if I don't want it to be.

I've been up late tonight mostly because it's one of my first nights being in the same bedroom as my husband since our last vacation..and he snores... As much as I love the idea of sharing a bed with him when I run out of nurslings and co sleeping babies...I don't think I'll sleep any better.

Amount other things we are now dog owners again. I thought I would never own another dog after what happened to Wolfie, but this guy adopted us. He's like the extra large jumbo version of Wolfie with his deep soulful eyes..that just make you love him. He's a Black and Tan coon hound and very well behaved and has a great sense of character..he dislikes all the same people I do, and is very protective of me and the kids, even though he is about 1 or 2 years old.

I didn't realize how big a hole in my heart not having a dog around was..I still catch myself calling for Wolfie ...instead of him . I feel like I am thrown backwards and I am starting all over again...I am getting second chances ...

William-
we finally got off the waiting list and are finally in speech therapy which has helped dramatically. He has a lateral lisp, which means his tongue and jaw are moving when they need to form a wall to make certain sounds. We have an app and are working at home using the techniques I am taught watching him and his speech therapist interact. I think Kevin's mom would have been a great help to us(she has a master's in it) and I think of her a lot even though she died of cancer when Kevin was 6)
Despite the setbacks we have in speech , he has started reading and learning words and able to read a few chapters of the McGuffey primer , which thrills me ... I am so glad it's all starting to click for him. He has started his first grade app after just recently finishing his kindergarten app and workbook 1-120 for math even though he is leaps and bounds ahead . I am letting him go as far as he wants in any given subject. He loves anything to do with engineering. And has quite the impression on the professional engineers on engineer day at our local science center.

I am quite proud of him for his strong will and work ethic .. He's a very responsible little guy. He's definitely going places. I can depend on him to help me and to question things . I love him to pieces.

Amelia-
She has been living in her own little world a lot of the time. She loves to play pretend and take care of her babies, animals, and other creatures she tends to. She is learning right alongside William in his studies but I don't make her do near as much the paperwork that he does. They are opposite in their work ethic . She seems to be more on the lackadaisical side than he is and that's not necessarily a bad thing we just need to learn to flow. By we I mean I .

She picks up flowers, and likes to slow down and meander through the life we live. Not a care I. The world... She really teaches me.. Patience, to take the scenes in around me, to observe, and to listen. I really am hard headed and so is she . And we are both very sensitive to any criticism...very emotional beings we are..

 She loves to draw and her and William draw all sorts of wonderful things for me :)  I could do better if I slowed down ...

Freddie-
Well, he's getting the courage to walk. He can but he doesn't quite balance enough for his liking. He is just a ball of pudgy happiness . He wakes up with a smile and goes to sleep with one. However he is at an age where he is testing what he can and cannot get away with and that can be quite frustrating when we are at a restaurant and he is throwing food at my face., or worse at other diners .

He is a daredevil and clingy all at once. Will climb and face plant off the back of the couch , but won't let go of me to float in a pool. He is staying very much my little baby boy for longer <3 and="" fine="" i="" just="" m="" nbsp="" p="" that.="" with="">
His sense of humor cracks me up. He is just like his grandma and laughs hysterically when people fall down. So sometimes William and Amelia will fake fall in front of him to get him to squeal with laughter.. That and fart noises... Which seems to be the family favorite in a house of boys..however that might be attributed to maw maw as well .

Kevin-
Seems to be in an agreeable state especially when sleeping, Been trying to get all affairs in order, such as taxes and budgeting, etc etc....stuff that makes me mad.

Me-
I have been doing really well. Three weeks ago I started working out with Gilad's bodies in motion 5 days a week and its not only taken off inches, it's made my body image way better. My work ethic has improved dramatically. I feel like I operate and run a better house now than before kids. It might not appear that way because my houses is lived in by 3 kids but I work harder every day and accomplish more even if it is unseen and goes unnoticed... I do put more hours in and I am proud of that.

I have been cooking more and eating out less, loosely meal planning , and keeping the basics in stock while acquiring new recipes to try. Pinterest has taken ahold of me and I have been doing little projects here and there.

I want to start singing somewhere again in public...it's been awhile since my musical self has been unleashed . For now I will settle for my shower, the car, and the awesome acoustics of my garage.

Either way I'm happy...I'm learning and hopefully getting better at this whole life business ,

So there's your update :) it's 2:37am and I'm still not sleepy
Namaste,
Elizabeth