Updates

W- I am undecided on whether or not I want to send him back to preschool. He is so smart and so compassionate that I just don't want him being influenced by others just yet. He has this nature in him that is so caring for other people. Now he can get a burr just like anyone else can , but he knows better and quickly makes things right. Lately though he has been easily upset-able.. so I don't know if my hormonal changes have affected his moods, but he has been weepy like me the past few days.

He knows how to write his whole name, and know the differences between first, last, and middle names. He can explain how things work like how a solar eclipse happens . He has an infinite amount of curiosity ,but mostly with the workings of things although he is getting more language oriented here lately since I bought an app to go over the phonetic teachings of the alphabet. A - has taken quite a liking to that game too.

He has gotten so big and it's hard to believe next month my toddler will be a child.. and 5 year old sweet little boy.. urgh I am going to cry again..

A- She is little miss know it all... and is in the " I can do it by myself" stage of everything except getting potty trained. Maybe I was spoiled with W and his relative ease of learning to poop in the potty around the age of 2.. I think she is not learning just out of spite and the sheer will of not wanting to be bossed around. She has her unbelievably sweet moments as well which make me feel so bad for getting on to her because she says " I just want to be a good girl mommy" and she really does.. I think everything with this year has been hard on the kids.. it's made A more clingy and W easy to anger...

We have these magnets on the fridge and the kids love lining them up and one of them is a kangaroo and it's her favorite and she calls it a hopparoo. Every time she says it I swear I just melt. I love little things like that. She is in love with all things pink...she is all girl that is for sure.

F- my little bean is not so little anymore and getting ready to come meet us here come mid September. I can't believe I am about to have my third child. It's surreal.. and I am hoping that when I have him I will get to be happy and not weepy all the time like I am now.. I am getting so depressed over every little thing... but mostly dwelling on death and growing old.. and my kids growing old.. dying... etc.. not the best subjects to dwell on while pregnant.. So I have become addicted to all things baby and wool.. I got tons of yarn being made into all sorts of cute little outfits, and longies, and rompers, for this little guy. Pretty much everything I didn't get to buy for W and A I have more than made up for already with MR. F :)

He kept pushing his little feet up on Kevin's hand tonight.. every time Kevin would put his hand on my belly, F would find it and push his little foot up against it.. like " hey daddy I am here.. "

Kevin- He has gotten so much healthier these past 6 months.. so to reward him he got a tv to watch all the football games he could desire on :) I am very proud of him.. and didn't realize just how much weight he had lost till I was looking through pictures from last year. I am just glad to see his energy, attitude, and just overall health has improved.. the looks are an added bonus!

E- Well the house is finally done for the most part.. got the sink to be hooked up and the new door to be put on, but other than that it's just cleaning and putting rooms back together. After 7 years we are finally getting to really truly move in and it just be us as a family. I didn't realize how much has been going on for the past year and a half let alone the entirety of our marriage. I need to enjoy this.. I need to soak it in... I need to stop this funk I am in and get out there and be happy. It's hard because every time I realize I am having a good time.. all I can think about is that it's going to end.. and it all gets me depressed...

It's almost 3 am.. and clothes are washing for the family picture tomorrow... I am excited! I cooked two chickens greek style and bought pites, and pita chips to bring to Cricket's for that. But before all that yumminess I went and grabbed a boston butt and rack of ribs for the BBQ birthday for my Paw Paw ( the kids great grandfather how cool is that! ) So.. lots and lots of food not including what mama is making... I think we have gotten together more as a family this year than we have in a long long long time.. and I hope we keep it up.. You don't miss things.. you miss people.. I can replace everything else..

I guess I am going to try and sleep got a big day tomorrow and don't need bags under my eyes.

Namaste,
Elizabeth