May already

Time for updates...

Kittens- Have their eyes open and are trying to walk

William- has been using his big boy pants for the past two weeks with a couple minor accidents but nothing major. He is really crazy about the girl next door and constantly wants to go over to her house and play. It's so neat watching him make friends and interact with other little people. We also started homeschooling this past Monday, and it went well, mostly crafts and some learning how to write out the alphabet on our slates( sounds like something out of little house on the prairie) but it's way more eco friendly than tons of paper that gets scribbled on. And a lot more furniture friendly than dry erase markers or crayons.

Amelia- went to sleep Sunday without nursing :( it's bittersweet. Because I know that I would like her to wean but at the same time I still like the fact she gets those extra antibodies against disease and germs. She is also starting to use the potty with alarming regularity. She is little miss busy body and she will do what she wants, when she wants, how she wants, and by god no one should stop her. We are all in a tug of war.... seems like me vs the little people. That and the fact more teeth are coming in isn't making her any more pleasant. Although her vocabulary is expanding quite well and her empathy towards others is improving.. hasn't made her too much better with the cat, but not choking her out like she normally does.

Kevin- changed Amelia's diaper tonight.. prefold+snappi+cover= job well done :) He is really trying and I am glad of that. He has been really helpful with my website buying venture. He's lost at least 10-12 lbs on this diet of his and I am really proud of him.

me- I am just tired, cranky, and needing stuff to do.. that doesn't cost an arm and a leg. Hence the whole website venture. I figure if I can pool my and my best friend's collective green mothering skills into a website and perhaps business then I will have something to work on and strive for that doesn't have to depend or be labeled or associated with any group. Which I quite like personally as me and most groups don't mesh.

I am looking forward to this year..seems like it's going to be fun. I was having a rough go of it for awhile as you might have read. I just get into a funk every now and again. Some funks are worse than others. Between death, dying, Cancer, and my body image issues... I just have a lot of stuff on my plate. As if being a mother wasn't enough I am taking on huge major issues that every human faces... but would rather not. And I just don't want to get all depressed about something that I can't do much if anything about.

I think about the path life has laid out for me.. .and roads I could have taken... but the grass is always greener... ALWAYS... and there will always be cons to whichever way you choose but I think in my case I chose wisely. I didn't come into where I am lightly or by mistake. Motherhood was something I always craved and the fact that it has brought me not only closer to the person I want to be but also brought me closer to people I want to be with... Timing is everything. I don't want to be 30 and starting a family.. mostly because I didn't think I would make it to 30... but also because I wanted my kids to be rooted. We need our elders....badly. So as much as I look back.... going what if..... I do appreciate the place I am now.

Anyways... off to my new venture... I got a play date tomorrow... websites to work on... and hopefully I get an iota of sleep before I must drive.

Off I go....
Elizabeth