April updates

Kids update April 2016
Sophie -
She's getting so big .. I miss my cute squishy dumpling .
Sophie calls babies Mae Mae's or mi mi's . She gets into everything all the time . Her favorite movie right now is Inside Out I think mostly because it starts with a baby.

She loves her daddy and telling knock knock jokes . Or really just one over and over and over again

Knock knock!
Who's there ?
Cow!
Cow who?
MOooooooooooo!!!

Her and Fred like to use their metal pans and make pretend meals together.

Fred - he loves to sit and talk. Which is crazy considering he took till 3 to start being verbal .He has interesting ways of looking at the world . When he got a geode for Easter he called them puzzle rocks .  He is very particular about pretty much everything. He loves to cook and help with anything food related.

He's doing great with his letters and starting to get enough dexterity to cut in a straight line with scissors and draw in straight lines .

Amelia - when she's great she's great when she's not she's throwing a huge fit about something somewhere . I think she's just extremely sensitive .. And feels ignored or left out in some way... I try to make sure she as well as all the other kids get special days out with just me or Daddy.

She's an excellent reader and loves books especially any of the Shel Silverstein books.

William and her do music classes and ball room dancing together and they have a blast .

I really wish she felt more secure in herself . She has a great sense of style and her singing and dancing is so awesome . She's an avid drawer and makes up some really creative stories, I think she'll be artsy for sure .

William-
He's starting to be mouthy but he's extremely responsible when he's not daydreaming or thinking of his great plans and ideas about space and science . He gets up every morning and takes the dogs out for their morning constitutional. I don't know many kids who will get up and take care of their pets and then get themselves ready to go and make breakfast.

He analyzes everything to a fault and has no trouble telling you when he's great at something .

 He is taking archery and he really is taking to it well but I don't want it to go to his head.

I can't believe he's already 9 going on 10.... That happened so fast. Oh and he can cook a great egg over medium<3 :="" be="" glad="" he="" help="" him="" i="" learning="" m="" nbsp="" p="" s="" self="" skills="" sufficient="" that="" to="" will="">
Kevin and I are doing the best we've ever been. I think we've done a great job of growing together and not apart . He definitely balances my personality faults well.

I'm finally figuring things out.... I'm usually a fast learner .. This took me only 10 years.. I'm finally digging in my heals instead of figuring out a way to leave home . I'm usually chasing something .. Or some place or someone. Now I'm setting my own rules and schedule whereas life used to just happen around me and I was slung around from thing to thing .

I'm no longer the road warrior I used to be. Where I was putting 5k miles on my car in a month or two.

I don't chase things or people either.. And boy am I so much better for it. People who I thought were friends and even missed their friendship when it ended weren't ever really there for me. I have people now who if I am sick bring me food and check on me. That want to do things with me and my kids. That value me... I'm not just the fall back plan or someone they call only when they want something. It's a good feeling to find that .

I find myself pushing harder, working harder, and trying not to take myself so seriously . Letting go of perfection at the same striving for it.

I'm waking up with a plan and trying to make things work and not getting so frustrated that I piss away my time here when it doesn't.

I'm sitting all day today holding my baby girl who caught a stomach bug... Instead of feeling helpless I made calls for my new soap making venture to check on supplies, looked up how to streamline my process and make new recipes .
I wanted to write in my journal more so here I am doing it on my phone while she nurses to sleep.

I'm learning to ride my waves.. Yes there are bottoms but when I'm at the top I make the most of it, I try new foods to cook, I look up new things to do and clean everything so when the lows inevitably hit me like a crushing wall at least I'm treading water instead of drowning.

I feel like I'm adulting at a higher level and it definitely feels good.