Typing one handed

I have a baby in my arms at all times now so I find it's harder and harder to write my more long drawn out thoughts down now...although having a cuddly baby on you is probably the best thing ever.

I am taking things way better now than I ever have. For instance, we got into a car accident recently ( someone pulled out into our lane..) usually I would be so pissed off.. yelling obscenities and begging the person why were you doing that! why now! why me! urgh! ..but I just crawled out of my window, made sure the kids were okay, and told the officer I was going to hoof it somewhere to pee.. and that was that. Kevin was surprisingly calm as well even though we both fussed a little afterwards, mostly the fact he wasn't wanting to go..plus we were both jokingly teasing eachother earlier about who was the better driver and I made a snarky comment as only I can.

Besides that it's been a fairly good week. Kevin is off from work for a week so we get time together...more than we bargained for since we are minus a car and low on funds the beginning of the month.

Onto updates on the kidlets...

Amelia rolled over the 4th..I got it on video :) I'm so proud of my little girl. I can't believe she is going to be 5 months the 15th...time flies. I feel so blessed to have her curled up on me right now.

I am proud of my sweet little guy too, he's been going potty off and on lately. And he's busy being a sweet big brother to his sister. He had me worried those first few weeks but he's my little helper now. He is my clone and has my stubborn tenacity, but cursed with my perfectionist tendencies..and temper.

I've been better now that the weather stopped being so horribly cold. I let the windows down to get fresh air in the house and then head outside myself. I forgot just how pretty my backyard is...even though there is a hole in the treeline from the tornado. I still do not like to look at it too long..reminds me of my sweet Wolfie. I don't know really how long it takes to stop crying over a pet that was also your only friend. He was my protector and my only confidant throughout my pregnancy with William.... and part of Amelia's.

I'm starting to think I have some serious people problems or developed poor social skills in some way as I have no like one best friend I call every day and share everything with type person.. maybe I am too guarded now after all the people I've been burned by. It's not that I don't crave that social interaction, it is just for the most part I feel so left out. I am one of the only people that can feel alone in a crowd.

So much for a short post..

I'm optimistic about the future..new hopes ..new dreams.. trying to find pleasure in the little things.. even if I can't do something I want right the very second I want to do it ..there will be time.. hopefully.