Thankful

It's that time of year again.. my favorite.. The time from Halloween to Thanksgiving that I find absolutely delightful. There are so many treats and feasts...warm meals, football which means weekend get togethers... just everything seems to line up to make ordinary houses inviting, cozy homes..

I sit in awe of the little people I have created and I watch them grow into these individuals that will someday have their own children.. Time is so precious. I didn't waste much this year I don't think. I used to go crazy staying up all hours for sales, clipping coupons, arguing with managers.. being generally unhappy with the whole debacle. Now.. I get there when I get there. I don't buy things just because they are on sale.. I will wait for the item I truly desire.. I still won't pay full price but I no longer try to kill myself over 50 cents.

Things start to loose their value.. and the people in your life become more and more priceless. I want to not think about death for awhile.. I want to just settle in and think of the now and be happy. Just sit and not let fear, or death control what I do. I have squandered 10 years with that thinking..Why do this if the end game is being dead. Nothing would migrate, nothing would breathe because breathing destroys cells which makes you die faster.. I mean it's ridiculous the amount of thought that gets wasted everyday thinking about the final and every lasting end. Done... I am going to try my best to stop it.. and this is it.

I went out today.. and as I drove I just felt joy.. its beaming from every person around me.. yes there are truly horrible picks out there.. but in not in my car.. not holding my hand .. not smiling up at me with a big goofy grin.. I am glad to be here.. if only for this small speck of time.