I am completely in love.. I have been these past 4 weeks in the best state of mind than I can remember. This wonderful little man came into my life and made it inextricably better. Infinite amounts of joy just come from holding his chubby body, feeling him breathe, petting his tufts of hair, and staring into his blue eyes. For the first time in my hurried, rushed, frenzied, chaotic, painfully sometime despressed existence, I have learned what everyone has been telling me I should do for my whole life. Stop.. slow down.... enjoy where you are right now. That and to focus but considering the fact my brain is on a slow drip I will settle for living in the moment and being in a nirvana like state even if it means forgetting the load of bread and eggs occasionally if not always lately.
My mom and I took all the kids to pick out pumpkins today. I had fun and the kids seemed to thoroughly enjoy it as well. I have been nesting and preening my house for fall. It feels like this is my first fall..with my new found senses.. it's not a depressing sad one either.. I just feel really alive. I went a little... well a lot crazy when it came to the amount of mums and pumpkins I decided to accumulate but I figure that a little color when you come home is never a bad thing. I don't need much.. if all I had was my babies and their daddy I would be just fine, but I am now surrounded by friends.. nice truly wonderful people, plus my already awesome family which keeps me safe and entertained :P I really can't ask for anything else...or if I did it would be for all of them to feel as happy as I am right now.
I don't tend to write happy things because I usually am too busy just trying to soak it in.. unlike when you get all in a funk... you tend to brew your discontent into 15 pages of woe.. so here is my happy post.. and it might not last.. but I am soaking it all in.. and going to go enjoy my squishy.. my sweet wonderful baby who made this year end on a good note...
Namaste my friends,
Elizabeth
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